Update

Hi everyone!

Since I was so busy with the moving, the apartment, my work... actually getting my life back on the tracks... I totally didn't had the need to update things on my blog.

So here are a few pictures of the last few months


I found this adorable cat nearby mine apartment and we instantly bounded. Her name is Nagy and without her... I think I would become crazy!


I started to feel more comfortable in my skin... and didn't refused the camera of others anymore. Because of this, I became more interested in modeling and started to take good care for my body again.


After 3 months of being homeless and not knowing what would come... I finally found a peaceful apartment in the center of the city... I feel so much better now...

I know it's a little update... but the last months where really the best and worst months of my life (on this moment) and I can't wait to celebrate my 22 birthday with the ones I love the most.


Nomad


Since a few days I moved in to my best friends attic. 
I gonna stay here for two weeks, and afterwards I gonna live for 2 months in Borgerhout.
And then... the praying for a studio can begin.
I think it's a little bit poetic, having a bed without a frame.
It kinda screams: 'I don't care'


zoanthropy

zoanthropy:n. – delusion of a person who believes himself changed into an animal 





I'm just so tired of the studying. At least it started raining the past few days so no sunshine for me! 
I'm just so tired... I'm longing for the vacation and for the late evening talks in the park.
I just want to read books, without worrying about school or work. And I just want to enjoy the street parties here in Antwerp.

I hope you all had a nice day... and for the ones out there that are still studying for their exams (like me).
KEEP STRONG AND STUDY ON


Mancinism

 Mancinism: favoring the left hand 


I just finished my philosophy exam, and I'm heading to my next one 'Economy'. I think it's all interesting... but  it's a sad truth that when you find something interesting, it doesn't mean that you're good with it.





Oh and just check out my this picture of me and my snake. I just learned her to lay still on my shoulders. I kinda feel like Daenerys Targaryen protected by her baby dragons... only I'm protected by my beloved snake. 

wanweird

wanweird: an unhappy fate

I discovered the magic of 'spirulina' and 'chlorella' powder.
Because of my veganisme I must take good care of my health and for the past few weeks I felt my health dropping.

So a friend of mine told me about 'spirulina' and how it takes care of your immune system. So I went to the vegan store and they also gave me some chlorella powder (which is super food).
I tried it this morning in my smoothie and I must admit... it wasn't a 'jolly' sight. 
My smoothie became this weird dark green goblin drink, but I already feel much more energetic!!!

They told me that it's also good for my hair, skin and fingernails... I'll give an update in a month.

and for now... I just study again (like I always do these days)






Lush review: KARMA SOAP


When I became vegan, it was very hard for me to find some nice soap. Most of the time it contains honey, or it just smells bad. I couldn't find something that I really liked until a friend of mine introduced me to the 'karma' line.

I just fell in love with the 'patchouli' scent. When you just leave it in the bathroom, the air fills with this 'incense' like scent. If you don't like this 'airy' or 'heavy' scents, this soap is nothing for you. 
Of course, it's not only about patchouli! There is a little hint of orange which makes that there is also this 'sweet' touch. 

The only sad part of it, is that it's only available in 'hard' form... there is no shower gel yet. But this little detail doesn't really makes me reconsider this product. 

If I had to describe this soap with a few words I would say:
Exotic and mystical


and the best part is... because it's a 'line', you can also buy the body cream, parfume and shampoo.

abligurition

abligurition: excessive spending on food and drink



I just returned from the vegan shop and I feel like a poor woman. I couldn't resist the urge to buy all these products that I don't need... but I think I won't be hungry for 1 month. 

And of course I couldn't say no to new lush products. Be prepared for some reviews! 

And for now... BACK TO THE STUDYING PART!!!!



Adoxography

Adoxography: A modern word to describe an ancient way to train young people in the art of rhetoric.





























Aarrghhh!!! I hate finals!!!
It's so funny that when you want to study... the weather seems to hate you! The sun is shining and you hear little children playing around.

Normal people would say that they don't like sun during their finals because they want to go outside. With me it's kinda the opposite. 
I'm allergic for the sun... so I'm just dying because at the moment. My body is just tingling, so I need to cover it. I can't wait till it's winter again.

I just want to make some nice snow angels and a snowman. 





Wisdom teeth


Today was such a fearful day.
After more than a year I decided to go to the dentist. I was so afraid that he would tell me that I had to undergo an operation because of my wisdom teeth. 



Have I've been so wrong. 
My wisdom teeth are totally ok it seems. Two of them have found their way out, and one of them is still acting weird, but there is no need to panic. So I'm very happy with this news.

After the little 'tooth' panic attack I can finally start studying for my finals.








wig



So my hair adventure continues...
I bought this super cheap wig in an African shop in Borgerhout. They were lowering their prices because the wigshop next to them were in their sales period. So I just enjoyed the 'war' between the two stores and made my move on their weakest moment.

People told me I kinda look like Merida from the movie 'Brave'. It just makes me laugh. I think people should buy wigs, as if they would buy rings and necklaces. It's just so fun to change your hair so easily. 


And this morning I received this bottle of coke. My name is finally famous enough for consumption!!! 
And yes... 'Jolien' is actually my real name. Nice to meet you!

strikhedonia

Strikhedonia: the pleasure of being able to say 'to hell with it'



I'm still not getting used to my new hairstyle. I still grab the shower cab. When I go to sleep, I still want to braid it. It must be such a silly view when I'm in the bus untangling non existing hair.

I discovered that I used my hair as my greatest 'accessoire'. But it may sound silly, but I don't miss it.
I only miss the 'color changes'.

So maybe I will buy a few wigs in the future, just to dye it with fancy colors.



About my outfit...
I tried to create this weird feminine/masculine look.
It's not the style of clothes I used to wear.  But now, I have the feeling that I can't be too 'fairy-ish', otherwise it just looks weird (believe me, it looks weird).



Shaved head


I finally shaved my head!
It's been one of the most liberating things I ever did in my life, 
I felt like I could truly do anything. I could just start over.



Femininity doesn't depend on pure physical appearance, it goes far beyond that. 

Alphamegamia


 Alphamegamia: The marriage between a young woman and an older man. 







Today was such a lovely day. I just went to the city for some vegan noodles time, and I came across these bird statues in the train station (Antwerp Central). The entire station was filled with these bird like statues. 
Suddenly I remembered why people that are not from this city are astonished by this station. 





I mean...just look at this magnificent architecture. 



Sometimes I'm so happy I live in this city. 











Viraginity

Viraginity: Masculine qualities in a woman 



Because childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies.
To be grown up is to sit at the table with people who have died,
who neither listen nor speak;
Who do not drink their tea, though they always said
Tea was such a comfort.






House Tyrell of Highgarden

House Tyrell of Highgarden is one of the Great Houses of the Seven Kingdoms, overlords over the Reach. A large, wealthy house, its wealth is only surpassed among the Great Houses by House Lannister, and the Tyrells can field the greatest armies. Additionally, if they call the fleets of their bannermen the Redwynes, the lords of the Shield Islands, and the coastal lords, they can command a navy that equals if not surpasses the royal fleet. Highgarden is an ancient seat of rule and the heart of chivalry in the Seven Kingdoms; the Tyrells style themselves 'Defenders of the Marches' and 'High Marshals of the Reach', and traditionally, they have been Wardens of the South. Their sigil is a golden rose on a green field, and their words are "Growing Strong."  (http://awoiaf.westeros.org/index.php/House_Tyrell)



So I finally decided to leave my bed...

So my new look was inspired by one of the Great houses in the amazing book series 'A song of ice and fire' mostly known as 'Game of thrones'. 
I'm more of a 'Targaryen' girl, but I must admit... the Queen of Thorns is also growing strong in my heart. 

Just for showing the love I putted on an semi transparent dress with rose/flower details with a nice flower headpiece I once bought on a festival in my village. 



Vegan Bacon


I'm already 11 years long a vegetarian, and 1 year ago I started experimenting with veganisme.
Probably because of the word 'experimenting', a few vegans will be offended, but here in Belgium 'veganisme' isn't that 'known' and their are not so many stores in my little village that sell vegan stuff.

After a few months I already found some things, and of these amazing products is 'VEGAN BACON'.
Since my fifth year of the vegetarian life I was craving for salty snacks... and sometimes when I smelled bacon  I thought: 'I must find vegi/vegan bacon', and after a few years I finally found it.

It's very funny that I don't remember the taste or the texture of bacon, but one of the biggest carnivores I know tasted it and told me it's kinda the same. So yeah, I'm pretty happy!!!



Nelipot

Nelipot: someone who walks without shoes. 



Sometimes I have these days that I just want to stay in bed. I really must convince myself to take a shower and eat something... and afterwards I just pull on some oversized sweater, short shorts and socks.

It's actually a waste because I end up in bed anyway. 


One of my colleagues helped me getting this sweater. In the shop (I work at Urban Outfitters Antwerp) I'm known as a 'die-hard' unicorn lover. Every time there is something unicorn'ish in the shop... I can't resist myself. It's a strange addiction.

So a colleague saw the sweater online and helped me order it, and now I'm the proud owner of this oversized warm sweater!!!! The socks are from American Apparel... they have the most awesome socks (and clothes)!!! 



And it's just like I said... I'm just editing these pictures in my bed with a nice cup of agave-tea. Later on I will just read a book. I'm almost finished with the 'A song of ice and fire' series. So I will probably start with Siddhartha written by Hermann Hesse (after a few hours).

And I end up in bed.





LUSH BLOUSEY REVIEW



One month ago I chanced my 'shampoo' believe, I used to wash my hair with shampoo from the regular stores with regular brands. (and they worked for me back then) But everything chanced when the hair dye attacked!!! 

I'm kinda addicted to hair dye. I colored my hair in the most crazy colors like pink, half brown half white, silver, purple, ginger,... Everything except black. In that period an amazing hairdresser wanted to dye my hair for a show, so I said: 'HELL YEAH'. But my hair was begging for mercy. 



 So Because of this little event my hair just died faster and faster. I kept a hair color for 'maybe' 2 weeks, I bleached it, and moved on to another color. But then came the moment I couldn't do anything anymore. and my hair changed into this very damaged 'EXTREME DAMAGED' hair.



 I wanted to shave it off  (yes, really shave it off) but then there was this 'lush' angel, and she helped me out. She told me about this amazing product 'Blousey'. It was a shampoo full with bananas and a delicious scent. So I tried it, and after just 5 days intense hair-care this magical thing happened. 



My hair became more manageable and started to shine again. 

So what's in this magical potion? 
Like I already said... the main ingredient are bananas. But there is also this wonderful herb 'clove' in it. The clove will take care of your scalp and will give your hair some extra shine. The blackberries and rosemary give this very nice scent.  

And did I already mentioned it's VEGAN?



There is only one downside on this shampoo. There are some, I call it 'banana seeds' in it, and they have the tendency to stay clinched in your hair when you have very tangled hair (which is in my case extreme tangled) but when I use a conditioner afterwards it doesn't matter.   

This product really impressed me (and my hair) and is also the reason why I' became a real lush lover.